Small fish in a big pond...

Today I was reminded of my freshmen year of college.  Oh the joy of moving out from under the mother and into the world.  I felt so free yet bound to this idea of what life was suppose to look like.  I could stay up til three in the morning and there was no one to yell at me when I returned home.  I could sleep all day on saturday with out my mom trying to sing song me awake at eight in the morning.  Everything seemed right.  I liked being a small fish in a big pond.  I was doing what the world said, "graduate from high school and go get your college degree".

Everything was possible in college and the sky was the limit.  I could be what ever I wanted to be and when I graduated the world will be at my finger tips.  Then I graduate and realized the world was very far away.  Having a college degree didn't seem to matter.  It was a piece of paper.  It is a piece of paper that I am very proud of but it is paper none the less.  Graduating college brought me face to face with the reality that I had no idea what I was going to do with my life.  No one had prepared me for real life.  I felt gipped.

Tonight as my friends enjoyed some tasty frozen yogurt on Dickson a group of obvious freshmen walked by.  You could see the wild light in their eyes and the naivety in their faces. My dear friend Crosby said "I would not want to be that age again.  I like where we are."  She is so right!  Even though life is not how I had imagined it to be I would not want to go back to the awkward age of 18.  I like where I am and I look forward to trying to figure out what I am going to do with my life.   This is just the beginning.